Sensitivity as integrity

"You're too sensitive" - people told me across my life - "you should toughen up." At an unexpected moment - when my current boss said so, I responded:

"I won't. Sensitivity is my superpower." 

I was shocked... what just came out of my mouth?! To an authority figure! Have you had these moments, when some truth leaves and you're surprised 'did I just say that?!' It dawned on me recently that it was one of the first obvious manifestations of integrity. Neither the first, nor the last, but the one that took me as a surprise. Little lights along the way... It's incredibly powerful when something speaks through us that our everyday surface-level self is not in control of. I'm not talking about raging uncontrollably, nor the enthusiastic sharing when you feel like you want to scream it from the top of a mountain for the whole world to hear, not about stubborn arguments... None of those.

There's a certain gentleness in these words. These moments of integrity have an exceptional clarity to them. Standing your ground in the face of anything. Staying true, whatever may come. A peaceful immovable power. I'd love to hear if you had an experience like it wasn’t you who said that? What is that quality that awakens the inner voice of Integrity in us?

For me, it was sensitivity... it was sometimes mistaken for drama, weakness, or even cowardness... What a joke! It's about a compassionate nature. A non-judgemental openness to the world and whatever life brings on. Eventually I realised that was always my priority: an undercurrent that took me to be there for those who need someone to be there with them in a supportive, compassionate and sensitive presence. It doesn't take any effort, just like gravity, natural, powerful and unnoticed. All other goals and ambitions were gone like leaves in the wind. This one remains: Tapping into the deeper levels of my own mind and beyond, seeing through all concepts of a mind. Embracing what's given, embracing sensitivity, as I am. Until an opportunity unfolded, training as a Leela Therapist, enabling to take all that given sensitivity to service. To offer a skillful presence for all who seek a sensitive ear to receive them as they are. So... here I am, ready to meet you, as you are. To support the unfolding of those beautiful hidden depths.